Now I know....It Really hurt me......

Now i Realize that i have being useless kind person....Being such a good listener.... being a Friend that always be there... be the one who took all the problems.... im trying to make they just like before.... Being the stupid among You guys..... yaa.... But at the end, You ended me like im a Dust bin... All your problems are solved and after i am useless to you....

When you are crying.... You search me for You own gooD... When u are about loosing hope to stand on your own problems... yoU take my Hand and stand together.... Yaa.. Do You know how much haPPy and Happier i be when finally you realize that im always be there for you..... When you travelling your hard time... Even im miles away from You still, im willing to hear all the thing that bother You my Friend....

Seeing You Crying make me a Dummie cause i Cannot Do anything to make u confort and warm.... iNstead of being a good Listener and a Tears giver, still make me regret as a friend... I never turn out to you when ever i need someone it is because i know that you carried your own burden... But Why things going this tough to me at the end.....??? tell me why am i have to feel your pain....??? yup i Know .. it is because i know you since we are little.... We cried together.... just like what we did today...We cried together whenever you need me.... But now, it seems not gonna happen again.... Im crying alone for you while you sitting with Your other friends With Cigars on Your lips and a bottle of jack in your hands.. It wont loosen until morning.... Do you know how worried i am...??? No you Dont... Cause.. You Forgetting me, and i believe As time Goes by... It will be no more memories For us in your Diaries....

There Will Be no "today i went off to Taman Rimba  With Jenny in a rainny day...It was owesome..."...... or... "Day two... me N Jenny crying like stupid under the bed because of the chocolate thinggy...ahaha..its stupid when im think back on what happen today...."....and sure there is no more " Stayed up late....Filming a super duper love story video clips....With Sampai menutup mata by agnes monica....haha....i donno how many times for the trial and finally here it is.....Tidak sabar mo bg tgk Jenny...."...... Gosh.... i Miss the moment.... But i think u Wont be able to remember that right.... because your life is better then what we did 10 years ago.... It wont be the same anymore....

But this it the fact that i have to Accept now.... We are not standing in a same hall way now... I dont know who are you anymore.... I just can see Our bright memory anymore.... You have change a lot.... Maybe it is the time for me to DELETE you from my memory... It is the time to move on....

So From Now on.... Go and find your Friend who are not a nerdy like me... I let you go... I will never Pick up your calls anymore... Im sick and tired for being your Freely Consultant..... Im tired about this shit... Im so tired to fEel Hurt... but You Never realize any single of my heart felt.... I dont deserve to be called a friend anymore.... I have decide that... I will stand on my own Even without a person who Consider her sElf as a Friend or BEST FRIEND FOREVER..!! Goshhh.... BFF too precious for me..... Yes it is the time.... Good Bye tHen....

P/S : i Am sorry Cause im Too busy with my liFe...I think i Wont be Able to be your Bridemaid.. Remember you msg me in sudden asking me to be your bridemaid in future.. And i Said Yess.... Just Forget that... im tired for waiting the Old you.... because you will never be the same as before .... "Waiting for you just like Waiting for a rain in a Dry Season..."... Thanks for Ever Being My BeSt Friend And A sistaa As Well.... Soo Long D.R.V.A.S.B....

With tears ,
JinutZ
(11:44 p.m / 8 Nov 2011 )