Young women’s Bad temper

Hello MElodies....

I kinda know how does it feels like to be someone who has a very highly egos and pride, yet so easily to mad with little-little things, even though it can be solve in a very simple way. Hmm that’s me, am one of it, I cannot control my anger, my mood, and my thought as well, when you are in that situation, everything is impossible, it turned out to be negative thinking  of yours…. That was BAD!!!

It doesn’t just effect u (the bad mooder) but also people’s around you, it create this weird atmosphere but also you make people feels uncomfortable…. Isn’t it?? Lol…. Geezz… I should have realize that before, what for experiencing things like this it makes me hating myself even more~~~ (T.T) ~~~

I do agree this method, “babe, whenever you feel your madness, just sleep, it will be much helping to reduce your madness temperature”…. Yeahhh it was actually WORKED!!!! I’ve done it before errr what I mean is, I tried to control my anger, yes I actually can…

“When there’s a HOPE, There’s a WILL” …

Therefore, Shushhhh uncomfortable feelings, madness, anger, and just smile…~~~ ^^

*p/s: I dedicated my sorry and apologize to my BFFs who knows me better, they accept me the way I am, erm my <3 dedeng who is always swallow my egos, my anger with kind~~ thanks bitches… I love you all…. I can never find a friend who is truthfully like them….

Till we meet again,

XoXo,

… Jinutz…

(10.24 am, Saturday morning, on 21^st of sept 2013) ^^

what... My Fault ??

dear melodies.....

> well.... the rumors had it all dia blg tu lagu..  mcm tu juga la dgn idup di cnie.... ta suma benda kita ble buat.... mcm lagu cempaka Dlu... "ape pun  tak boleh, ape pun ta boleh~~~" mcm tu la kunu.... haha

> the stupid thing is..... everything they want to speak out loud.... suma nya post di Social network masing2 ..(hei..sy pun gtu tau.. Choi).. and then ckp mcm2 ... si kawan yang komen pun paling suka la tu...sbb apa...??? boleh kutuk dan burukkan org... part paling syok tu bila da mula la permainan twist tongue.... putar belit fakta untuk kubur sayur2 yang dia dah muntah kan td.... hahaha... suka sgt tgk game mcm nie.... 

>they revile who ever they want.... tp point ttap kena la dkt buntut nutz juga.... 1st tym nmpk...amboi... jantung bukan main kencang g, terkejut... 2nd nmpk.... ahha.... dada rasa nak mletup,,,,, ttp account jap..rehat kan mata dari benda2 ta baik.... dah cool down buka balik tgk dgn tenang sambil ketawa.... melihat ke-TIDAK-MATANG-an pelajar university.... Malu Jo.....!!!! ei.... rasa cam nak buang ja kad matrik nie bila tgk prangai manusia trutama menggelar diri berpendidikan rupanya perwatakkan dan tindakkan tak ubah mcm budak tingkatan 2.... Mind your own level syg... 

> The one that awakes..... mksd nutz cnie.....org yg ta patut2 jadi mangsa... hairan.... bercakap bukan main gagah perkasa.... berkaliber... bergaya dan bermutu... tp syg... berckp umpama ada syr d GG... lucu sgt.... pandang cermin sebelum berckp.... takut2 ada urat ayam kFc tu mlekat kat gg.. kan da malu... isk...isk...isk... sedih....!!!

oh.... nutz nantuk la pla... ta dpt truz kan,,,, nnt nut sambung ya.... bye2..sayonara.... g makan.... ~~ hiru wa gohan tabemasu.... oiishi desho....

i Lost my Ring...

Yep... that's it.... Dear melodies..... 

as u know.... I lost my ring.... and the worst thing is, its Dedeng mum's ring,,,,
gOSH.... i felt really miserable... omg... i need to drink something cold....oh my.... and again.... today is my last day in Sarawak before going back to my motherland tonight..... My God.... ~~~~ *sigh* ...

wish me luck...~~~ (T_T)

Jinutz... 

My Dearest Lecturer ....

Dear Melodies, 

I know, second year in the university was very tough i guess.... Even me, i am struggling till my very last to aim for the best to myself.... But i guess i have to admit it that it wasn't easy at all.

One of the Toughest lecturer i have ever met in my entire life, Prof. Dr Lucy. She teaching us Foreign Policy Analysis and International Relations, well just by reading the subject title you it was pretty tough, so Do i.....~~

Well, the bad news is, she will be teaching us for 3 semester (O.O) huh, wow.... whenever i think about this, i get myself shaking and shivering...~~~ and yeah... i did not survived on my first semester for my second year in University Malaysia Sarawak. But, i think about it with my positives thought, i finally did not regret it at all, because i just realize that if i did not failed, i will never learned, well i guess i found myself as lucky to learned about Foreign Policy Analysis TWICE.... LOL.... 

For my second Semester, she will be teaching us "International Politics in Asia Pacific". Kinda bored but actually pretty awesome. Well, the first day, she did not come to the class, yeah that makes us smile, same like the second day. And the second week, she was replaced by one of our lecturer which is more gentle, soft spoken, and pretty i guess ( boys doesn't seem like her - I Don't Know Why,...). 

But day by day, ads time passed by, she blow out the news to us this morning. She said that there's a bad and a good announcement to make, 

The bad news is - Prof. Dr. Lucy will not be teaching us for this whole semester, due to her conditions, so there is no individual presentation, and there is no Course portfolio.... hehehe..... but by thinking of her (prof), i feel a little bit upset, because if her conditions still not recover i guess she's not gonna teach us anymore and maybe retired. For the time being, just pray that her conditions will be better soon. God Bless You Prof. Get better... !!! 

The good news is - that pretty lecturer will not be teaching us that subject anymore, i will be replaced by some lecturers from department of Politics and International studies. Doesn't look creepy right??? here the creepy part is..... We will be teaching by Prof Dr. Andrew which is Twice Scary, tough and creepy from Prof Dr. Lucy... yaikssss.....  Will us be survived??? oh no... i don't dare to see the future..... ~~~

But its okay.... My daddy said... "just try your best, it u couldn't do it, don't push yourself over the limits.." ... very understanding father, but the words was actually inspired me to push myself to the east so that i can try harder, not smarter... ~~~ 

Well, here from now.... Dear melodies, don't change what life is, but  change what it suppose to change...~~~  hehehe (i dunno what am talking bout... lol)

Simple melodies, 

....Jinutz_<3 .....

(11/03/13, 19:16)

The definition of FRIENDSHIP....

Dear Melodies,
I like this words.... " A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade" ... yup a comrade.... 

Susah senang bersama, menangis, ketawa, suka, duka, benci, merajuk, bila sunyi rasa ja hati mencari dia.... iaitu si Sahabat... beberapa manusia di dunia serba moden ini mustahil untuk seorang manusia yang mencintai persahabatan.... oh ya... mungkin diorang nie tiada memori yang indah untuk dikenang bersama.... 

Itu la..... Ramai yang selalu pesan pada saya... "hargailah masa-masa kamu bersama kawan-kawan, sebab bila usia da meningkat yang ada hanyalah kenangan yang ta dapat kamu lupakan"... Betul kata-kata nie... Semua orang mempunyai kenangan, iya kan... anda juga begitu, pasti mempunyai kenangan walaupun ta banyak tapi sekurang-kurangnya ada satu kan....??? 

Saya juga mempunyai kenangan indah bersama kawan-kawan yang kini saya jadi kan sebagai sebuah cerita indah dalam hati ini, terima kasih sahabat kerana telah mewarnai dunia kanak-kanak, persekolahan, remaja dan juga alam penuh cabaran ini iaitu dunia orang dewasa. 

Tapi dunia serba baru ini menyebabkan saya kenal manusia walaupun rambut sama hitam tapi hati lain-lain, ada yang nampak saja muka ta boleh dipercayai, tapi rupanya itulah rakan yang paling tepat... ada juga muka yang sangat boleh dipercayai tapi rupanaya umpama gunting dalam selimut, talam dua muka dan harapkan padi, padi makan pagar. 

Kenapa saya kata begini??? saya ta reka cerita okay...... melalui pengalaman yang tragik ini, saya simpulkan jenis-jenis manusia yang ditemui.... Sejarah pun ta dapat menggambarkan betapa bahayanya "creatures" ini...

Jenis-jenis "Creatures" yang bahaya.... (hati-hati kama.... yang membaca ini sila berjaga-jaga, di waktu siang ataupun malam... (8_8) )

1. Makhluk berwajah DUA.... - arghhh.... tgk nama ja pun menakutkan da.... hahah.... nie bahaya nie... di depan wah indah macam malaikat, di belakang, perangai kalah saitan.... sebagai contoh, dia menunjukkan betapa concern nya dia terhadap si kawan ini, menaburkan kata-kata nasihat yang tajum n menusuk-nusuk... yalah.... orang bermuka dua nie memang pelakon layar perak paling hebat... yai... tahniah kepada anda..!!!

2. Merangkap menteri kewangan... - haha..ini bagus...sangat bagus...sebab segala bajet yang dikemukakan oleh si sahabat akan ditolong kira dan dihitung bagaikan seorang accountant yang membuat laooran akhir tahun untuk diaudit kepada CEO syarikat. Siap dengan amount shopping, monthly.... fuel.... makan.... dan lain-lain lagi... fuh.... alangkah indah nya sekiranya menteri kewangan ini turut menyalurkan wang dalam poket yang suda bersawang.... pendapatan saya pasti terjamin..... "lol

3. Penjual ikan aka Sell Fish.... - muahahaha.... yang ini pun sangat bagus,,,,, profit itu penting mungkin kan.... huaaa....erm ini pula,,,, dikala seorang kawan yang telah lama dikenali, boleh dikatakan membesar bersama, bersekolah bersama sehingga la sekarang, sakit dan dalam keadaan yang sangat kritikal, tp tetap meletakkan keperluan dri di tempat yang pertama, sehingga sanggup menyusahkan orang lain yang lagi drastik penat dari diri dia itu. Cakap saja la MALAS, kan jujur itu lebih indah~~~~ kalo benar dia orang yang waras... penat macam mana pun dia tetap akan tunggu sebab itu adalah kawan dia, tapi apa kan daya, malang sungguh rakannya itu mempunyai kawan seperti itu, si penjual ikan yang mahir, nasib baik Tuhan itu maha adil, dia telah mengirimkan seseorang yang baik hati kepada si rakan ini, walaupun hanya membina persahabatan yang hanya setahun jagung namun persahabatan itu sangat erat, sehingga kan lelah yang bertandang ta diendahkan yang penting kesihatan si rakan dapat dipulihkan.... Iya nampak sangat betapa indah persahabatan sekiranya kita saling memerlukan.... 
P/s: hati saya tersentuh bila sahabat kiriman Tuhan menjadi alas kepada si rakan untuk beristirehat, pada saat itulah juga saya bersyukur dan memuji Tuhan kerana mengirimkan saya sahabat2 sejati yang baik hati..... ^_^

4. Deejay Radio Belakang - umpama Farah fauzana dan Faisal ismail yang petah berbicara di stesen radio Era.fm.... hehee...tp yang nie lagi hebat...mengalahkan JJ& Ean....hahaha.... (i like them both)... perkataan berbau komen dan kritikan umpama mereka la yang tahu akan hal sebenar....  seolah-olah mereka la pengarang skrip yang tahu akan chronology dan synopsis kepada sebuah cerita yang saya analisis ta mempunyai penghujung dan pengkal....  Kritikan demi kritikan....positif jadi negatif menyebabkan si mangsa seolah-olah mendapat panggilan hangit... aigoo Stress.... terpaksa la mengambil inisiatif lain untuk menenangkan hati dan perasaan di luar kawasan siaran radio..... 

5. Perumpamaan - "kata orang dia yang lebih".... suatu ketika saya dilemparkan kata-kata ini.... iya terima kasih keranan menyedarkan saya betapa kita bukan la mempunyai beza yang sangat ketara....  aihhh...susah nak kata....sebab mmg susah la..... hahaha....

6. sitting like a Boss - .... hehehe.... nak kata paling hebat di alam fana pun ta juga,.... erm kenapa bossy.... bila ingat satu hal ini.... ketika tu mereka membeli sebuah perabot agung yang sangat2 mahal.... muahaha.... so bila dah ada kat ruma tu apa lagi rehat la...bila masa yang sesuai baru buka dan kemaskan benda tu.... and the bossy pun kluar bersama boss yang satu juga.... so the other people were just a servant.... why??? hahaha...jeng-jeng-jeng.... sekembalinya the bossy's nie ke rumah.... kata-kata paling bikin benci kluar dari mulut the second bossy... kononnya perlu buat ta paya tunggu arahan...come on la babe... WHO ARE YOU AGAIN???? someone must have forgotten.... yeah sorry everybody don't know who u are,... why are u being so bossy, everybody  pay the same amount of rental, bills, and etc.... what the heck...!!! yeah... it shock me... someone thought that they will never talk bad things.... pergh....  tapi tapa.... that day... servant know that they cannot be trusted...haha...

7. dengus kalah lori sampah,...- ahaha..ini saya selalu sangat dengar and sangat-sangat annoying.... pergh.... knapa??? erm everytime nampak benda yang ta patut2 mo marah tiba2 saja mendengus.... mcm enjin lori sampah yang tersekat..... kena lagi time-time ada c rakan dia tu ( yang malang tu), of coz la lagi kuat dengusan hidung tombak dia tu (tatau pa mksud nie)....  erm sngt annoying mo dngar tu suma.....

8. baik Kala perlu sahaja... - erm sangat baik sekiranya memerlukan bantuan tapi bila senang pada saat itu la kejahatan tahap dewa keluar..... kenapa org tahan dengan perangai korang yang begini ya???? anda tiada bezanya dengan pendusta yang lain.... hairan.... 

ERm sebenarnya saya banyak g mo cakap nie...namun mata suda berat dan tangan juga suda penat...hehehe.... time to sleep.... 

so.... every people yang membaca blog ini... No offence... ini adalah hasil kajian spesis manusia yang harus kita elakkan dan berjaga-jaga demi menjamin kualiti hidup yang lebih baik di masa akan datang... Walaupun diri ini juga tidak la sempurna mana, apa yang baik ikut la... kalo ta..sendiri mo pikir la....~~~

Jangan biar kan diri anda diselubungi "Creatures"....... 

bye-bye melodies,
Jinutz
(07/03/13, 00:52)

P/s: nanti akan di update lagi...ehehe...kalo ada part two don't worry pasti update...hee... selamat malam.... oyasumi nasai...adios...~~~~

Bikin sakit ati!!!

Gosh melodies.....
now were having our fight.... i just don't get it.... why is it lately were tend to fight with each other.... is it am the one who is sensitivities to everything he said.... or he is the one doesn't know what kind of word to talk to me....!!!

I don't know... we fought about me driving in the middle of the night... driving with the normal speed pun..... apa la sgt kalo setakat 100km/hr.... yalah i admit dat am not a good driver as he was.... but at least he is a person who knows me well bg la semangat ckit...ta boleh ka dia berfikiran positif sikit....

Saya penat sgt...asyik2 dapat kritikan yang negatif...saya juga pnya perasaan.... Driving tengah malam like it was my first time driving in the middle of the night, around 2 am in the morning just to save someone's life....is that mean...???

Ouch.... itu ka pula balasan tuk org yang try mo buat kebaikan kepada org lain yang memerlukan pada saat-saat genting... tp kritikan pula dapat.... huh... saya juga manusia.... biar setinggi pelajaran pun kalo dilayan mcm tu sepa yang ta sakit ati....

Saya tau...sa bukannya hebat memandu macam dia...ato mcm micheal shumaker (antam la...) tp sekurang2 pray for the best la..... kalo pun takut saya mati eksiden.... kalo da memang ajal...mo buat macam mana la kan..... itu kan da ketentuan Tuhan.....

Rasa macam mau nangis saja....hajat untuk bjumpa ta lama lg hancur gtu ja....sakit ati...ta xcited g....

suda la.....

TAHNIAH ANDA SUDAH BERJAYA MENYAKITKAN HATI SAYA.....!!! YAHOO UNTUK ANDA.....

thats me...
your shadow...!!!
(06/03.13, 23:24)

Bad News ~~~

At around 6.18 pm... my dad call... with his very soft spoken tune...
 "Ney...kereta dady kena Curi orang....baru juga balik dari balai polis nie...buat laporan dengan bb(my sis..)"....
As i'm laughing and smiling happily suddenly i feel worried and fear....What is wrong with...i;m shock....
All i care is how was my dad's feeling..
The big day is just around the Corner...My Second brother wedding day...His biggest day...And yet its Christmas eve.....Huuuu...Gosh...how could this happen...???
"god what is actually are you trying to clarified..."...
All i can think is....how's my dad..??is he alright??..."... but the only thing that i hear is...

"dady is now not in the Good mood...."
"daddy now very sad...he Don't even know what else to do.."...

Ow maybe God is actually listening to all of my prayers towards my family...???

I think every time i prayed i never pull away my family's needs..... I'm hoping that one day God will touch their hearts to just be faith to him...He is the light through the darkness....Maybe God is creating the best story ever for our Family daddy....I know he will do the best for his people...I know i have faith in him that he was the happy, healthy and joy seeds among us all in our family.....

Daddy....I know what ever it takes...never lose faith in Him.... He is Jesus Christ....it must be a miracle ....because it is Christmas Eve....remember....??? this is the way God unites us and never separate us.... Give All of your trust and hope.....Because i never lose my Faith in him...I he Will always be there whenever i need him....He is my peace...He is my precious...He is my Savior.....

There must be a reason for it....never lose faith Dad.... i Know you are very upset..So do i..... i deadly cannot see you with your sad face while i'm reach kk then....i'm not strong enough to face it.... You need to be strong dad... I know you Can... Cause i have the faith in you.....

What Ever happened...Dady you will always the Best daddy in the world.... i Hold your SOn's and Daughter's Love....We Do Loved you Deeply and never Fade....

I'm begging you to be strong...because we will always be there For you no matter what no matter how....

"family is our first PRiority..."

P/s: This is my old post where am about to cry whenever i think of my beloved dad.... Well, love your dad as much as you love yourself, not just your dad but the people around you before they being taken by God who love them much than u do.....  Happy melodies~~


lil Melodies,
~~~Jinutz
(28/2/2013, 10:14 am)